Thursday, December 31, 2009
Honestly, I want to cuddle up with some great wine and play games with my friends and have a small party.
Here's the confession:
I DON"T LIKE CROWDS!
I"m pretty sure that this has become more apparent to me over the last year or so. I know, I know, I married Mr. Social himself and I'm sure that if it weren't for him, I would be self employees, working from home and become a self confessed hermit!
However, some of our best friends are planning this thing at the community center across the street so we will do what we promised and have a good time, I hope!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I was reading this blog that the was really encouraging to clean that inbox out! So I have done just that... I have unsubscribed to all of it! It was so nice to check my mail with my piping hot cup of joe to find just 3 emails this morning!
Go on, do the same... it feels so good!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
I feel like I am living a life that is not my own. School, work, hectic schedules. I feel as though each week plows by and little was accomplished. While, I leased several apartments, made an "A" on the paper that I did last week and have completed that math test 3 days before it was due, I feel like I haven't accomplished what I want to have done. That heaping load of laundry... that disorganized closet that haunts me at night time and laughs at me, those empty picture frames that have been leaning on the wall next to the kitchen table since may, that coat closet, ugg- all nightmares!
I AM very thankful for the things that I do have, don't get me wrong. We have two cars, that qualifies us in the top 5% of world population. We have a fantastic apartment that we would not be able to afford if it weren't for my job. Oh that's another thing, my job, that 9 to 6er that pays me well and has rockin' benefits. The other things, we can WALK TO CHURCH! How cool is that, and we are thankful. We have a cute puppy that is getting out of damage mode, and we love him even more now!
Maybe it's holy discomfort, may it was bad burrito's... I don't know.
I was talking to Frank about it last night and he was saying he felt the the same way. He doesn't know what he wants to do, well he KNOWS, but it's not going to happen right now. So in the mean time, he is having a little personal identity crisis... I started freaking out because this man who is suppose to have it all together and is leading me is having questions popping up all over the place about his means of providing... AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Until the Lord moves in us, we shall be on our knees and stay where we are, working hard... lovin' eachother and that sweet pup of ours!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
1. No coffee! I can skip the meal, but never that yummt hot cup of joe in the morning.
2. No exercise. This has been my new found survival tool. I get alone time to clear my head for the day, talk to my creator and enjoy some puppy time with sweet dallas. THE BEACH IS THE BEST WAY TO EXECUTE THIS!
3. Grouchy co-workers. It's usually just Rob and I in the office, so when his sweet babe keeps him up all right night or there was bad traffic, his foul mood rups off on me.
4. No tuck tuck from my sweet hubby. He gets up when most of us still call it night time to go to work. After he sneaks out of bed, gets ready and makes himself a cup of Via, he tip toes in and kisses me and tucks me back into the sheets.
5. Missing earrings. I don't know why, but somehow, those fab earrings that will just make my outfit go missing. I usually will find them the next day or during lunch!
6. Pants that are too short or ride up. Need I say more? Thank goodness Banana Republic and Gap are FINALLY catching on that we are not all 5"5 and need longer than 32" inseam!
7. Uncomfortable underwear. And by that I mean, it doesn't stay where it needs too, is too tight or blah! It's got to go!
What are yours?
"I will lift my eyes to maker of the Mountains I can climb,
I will lift my eyes to healer of the hurt I hold inside,
I will lift my eyes to the raging ocean tide."
My small group is starting a book about cleaning out "emotional closet". It's going to be a hard next few weeks as I cling to the truth, the Truth that is promised to set us free. I pray that I will look to my Maker, that I will see myself as he created me. I have too. It is time to let go of the lies, the poison that I have listened to- from myself and others!
I pray that I will have the faith like David did. All I have is a little sling shot and I'm up against warriors. Those warriors are giants. They are the giants of lies, doubt, anxiety, selfworth or worry. But with the TRUTH OF MY MAKER, I will suceed.
I pray that I will have the courage like Peter did to step out of the boat to meet Jesus. That is He will give me the courage to love Him dangerously. That I will be a woman after the Lord's heart. That I will seek the Lord with ALL my heart, not just a part.
I pray that I will have the strength like Mary. To withstand hardship and still find myself on my knees praying and praising my savior.
And lastly, that I would make each day a little easier on my husband. That keeping his vows would be easier than I'm sure I make it. That I will make it easier for him to lead me, to teach me and love me. That I would be a better roommate to him (sorry for the dirty clothes that are always on the bathroom floor!).
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
1. Run a marathon and not pass out
September of '08
3. Hit my goal weight and look fabulous!
4. Throw an amazing party for a fabulous friend.
August 17, 2008
6. See clear ocean water.
7. Go to africa
Honeymoon August '08
October of '08
Atlanta; August 14-18 2009
11. Go to an outdoor concert or huge festival.
Registered for classes this fall. School starts on Monday!
13. Start a company
14. Build a savings account.
15. Start a fruitful small group, pref. all women.
16. Be an amazing wife.
17. Read the entire bible, in order, at least once.
18. Become a regular tither.
19. Buy a house
20. Make the house livable.
Honeymoon; Biltmore winery!
22. Have a beath taking kiss.
23. Get scuba certified.
Atlanta; August 16, 2009
25. Blog regularly.
August 17, 2009
Meaningful, maybe; but it's a full timer, full benefits and a amazing discount for our amazing cozy apartment!
28. Eat a 5 star resturant with fabulous company, fabulous shoes and fabulous conversation.
29. Give blood before going to Africa.
30. Buy new bedroom furniture.
Honeymoon; August '08
Sunday, July 5, 2009
We went outside to play, I was toast! Frank was falling in love with the animal that I didn't know if I could handle. Frank can barely remember to brush his teeth and load the dishwasher, how can he possible take care of this animal. Is it going to fall on me? All these things are going through my head. When Jen and I were talking while the boys were playing, I was all but dashing for the door. I even asked her if she would come and live with us!
We went to the car to make our final decision... 15 minutes later, we were all piling into the car to take our new addition home with us!
This is my Favorite:
Dallas, we love you so much... welcome to the Family!
That is how I feel. While walking from my host house in Villa El Carmen, Eduara (the translator) and Rebekah (the host's daughter), they were talking and of course I didn't understand what they were talking about. I was just walking and looking around at the beauty of what the Lord had made, soaking in the culture, the smell... and then it caught my eye... the big ugly, fat, dirty chancho. I started to think about that chancho and myself. How my heart, my insides, my soul is a chancho. It is disgusting! The maker of this world, the King of Kings, the Lord of these nations breathed life into me and I have the nerve to ignore Him. How dare I be tempted to give him the first of my fruits, the first part of my day. So may times when I pray I do all the talking and when I want to "hear" from Him, I give him like 10 seconds before I am distracted by the wonderful husband that I have, what we are going to have for dinner, what my friends are doing and that I want to go and play or that heaping pile of laundry that haunts me.
I ask, "Lord, where are you?" but I'm so blind by my pitiful world that I can not see him. He's everywhere, he's in my gorgeous apartment, my wonderful job, the eyes of my husband and friends. He's in the trees, the ocean... he's everywhere.
I feel as though my faith is too simple, that I might as well put it in a little jar and just set it up on the mantle and when i need something, get it down and rub on it. That is how I treat my King. He has blessed me more than I can ask or imagine and all I give him is 10% of my fruits and my time... occasionally. My soul is a chancho!
So what is my action plan:
- To dig deeper, to get in the word and spend some time with my maker.
- To search Him and find him.
- To search and understand my purpose, why he has put me here.
- To serve his people; to feed the hungry, heal the sick.
I do not wish for beauty and gold, I wish for my soul to be full. To live this one life I have to the max. To leave a legacy that will carry on. For when I stand before the throne I want the Lord to say, "job well done my good and faithful servant."
Friday, May 8, 2009
I'm so nervous about moving. I look at this boxes packed all around me. I'm scared... it's the third move in 9 months. I'm so tired, frustrated and worried! Please protect us. Give us your discernment and wisdom... we need it oh so bad~ I know you are my protector and provider, please remind me.
Thank you for your kindness and grace that I need everyday. Thank you for being my abba father, the alpha and omega. I do not understand this, I can not wrap my pea brain about the alpha and omega. While I have a great dad, I can not understand your perfect love, grace and forgiveness.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
The film was shot in India with Indian characters, the kid actors really are from the slums. After the movie, we were talking about it on the way home and one of the responses was, "it was disgusting how they lived!". At first I was annoyed by that remark and how naive it seemed. How could they say that, that is really how the other half live! After thinking about it for over 18 hours now, I have realized it is disgusting and it breaks my heart. It breaks my heart that for the first time, there was not "Hollywood" put in a movie, that it filmed reality and the world is seeing it maybe for the first time! It made me sad that I was offended by that comment for it sounding so stuck up and unemotional. Maybe I do need to be disgusted by it so that it was break my heart, that there needs to be light there. Orphans there are the dogs, they are unwanted and in the way. The beg and are dirty. They are mistreated, there is no one there to stick up for them to make sure that what goes on behind doors is ethical and humane.
There are the cuties from the movie:
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
She would ride in this: